We had a heated argument regarding a prolonged issue at home. I hated myself for saying things I shouldn't have, I wanted to cry out loud, but I didn't want to look like I am weak or I am losing the argument.
So I put on my running shoes and ran out of the house, I jumped down alternate stairs. I ran on the street without knowing which direction I am heading to.
In the mid of a weekday afternoon, running on the street wearing home clothes, running shoes and million stares did not matter. My mind was busy evaluating of what went wrong, we were happy, why did this issue come up, what can I say to convince them that I am right.
Tears stung in my eye but refuse to flow.
I ran a few blocks, I saw kids alighting the school bus, I saw mothers with toddlers, I saw a few cabs, I saw people smiling and helping each other. Seeing people, made me momentarily forget my problems, but I couldn't find an answer to my issue nonetheless, but it didn't hurt that much now.
I wondered, how a few people can have so much influence in my life, that even their simple words could make so much impact to my being.
I asked questions to myself, but couldn't get any answers.
I ran, I ran some more, I reached the garden in the end of the road which had a lot of trees. The flowers bloomed, the kids played. It was a happy place, I could feel my feet slowing down. I stopped to smell the freshly tilled earth, I stood there for a few moments to smell the roses.
I saw a man cleaning old leaves, then I realized, nothing lasts forever, the dried old leaves were green and happy once. Some wind blew them down, and they lie there rotten.
Instantly I got answers to my problems, my family is my forever, and they won't last. I can't stop one issue from ruining my happy place.
So I started running again, but this time with a smile on my face. I wanted to run as fast as my feet could take me. I have made up my mind to apologize and I promise myself that this time we will find a solution without flaring tempers and tears.
My running shoes helped me find gratitude on a day when I thought was the gloomiest.
This post is written for Barathon Day 1 - Theme of Day: Run/Marathon/Sprint/Chase
So I put on my running shoes and ran out of the house, I jumped down alternate stairs. I ran on the street without knowing which direction I am heading to.
In the mid of a weekday afternoon, running on the street wearing home clothes, running shoes and million stares did not matter. My mind was busy evaluating of what went wrong, we were happy, why did this issue come up, what can I say to convince them that I am right.
Tears stung in my eye but refuse to flow.
I ran a few blocks, I saw kids alighting the school bus, I saw mothers with toddlers, I saw a few cabs, I saw people smiling and helping each other. Seeing people, made me momentarily forget my problems, but I couldn't find an answer to my issue nonetheless, but it didn't hurt that much now.
I wondered, how a few people can have so much influence in my life, that even their simple words could make so much impact to my being.
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I ran, I ran some more, I reached the garden in the end of the road which had a lot of trees. The flowers bloomed, the kids played. It was a happy place, I could feel my feet slowing down. I stopped to smell the freshly tilled earth, I stood there for a few moments to smell the roses.
I saw a man cleaning old leaves, then I realized, nothing lasts forever, the dried old leaves were green and happy once. Some wind blew them down, and they lie there rotten.
Instantly I got answers to my problems, my family is my forever, and they won't last. I can't stop one issue from ruining my happy place.
So I started running again, but this time with a smile on my face. I wanted to run as fast as my feet could take me. I have made up my mind to apologize and I promise myself that this time we will find a solution without flaring tempers and tears.
My running shoes helped me find gratitude on a day when I thought was the gloomiest.
This post is written for Barathon Day 1 - Theme of Day: Run/Marathon/Sprint/Chase
Running does help in clearing the mind. Walking, and music help too. Good post
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Running is the best way to stay away from many diseases. Keep it up dear 👍
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Thank you Amna..I loved reading your post too.
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Loved how you narrated the dilemma, the journey and the realization
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DeleteThat Run helped clear the cobwebs from your mind! Exercise helps both mind and body! Enjoyed your post :-)
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one of the best thing to deal with one self... nice post
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I agree..
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There’s nothing like a good run in the fresh air to get back on track. Yes we do have people annoy us, depress us, sadden us but in the end as you say nothing lasts forever . Loved the take on the prompt.
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