I am not a mistake, I never was

So much to say, but no words

So many reasons to come close but, still the distance

An eerie silence prevails

So many things inside the head, so much to share but something got lost

Something inside broke

So much love, but don't know to how to express

No gain, but so much pain

Something died inside

Some words said, some unsaid

A broken heart, million shards apart

Now lonely and tired,

 Tired of being tested

Tired of saying what it feels

Tired of its innocent words being twisted

Tired of being hurt

It wants to give up,

But it beats alone, It beats for love

With a lesson learnt, its better to be a closed book, than sharing feelings with the one you love.

So many words in the eyes, pleading to be heard

Hands that are trembling, wishing to be held

A body that needs to be hugged

Tears that need to be wiped, wiped for real

I might smile,

That smile is not real

I might talk to you like nothing happened

But inside, I'm not the same

You may  have said something to end a fight

But, I know that I have lost

You may think a gazillion times that I am your mistake

You have always been my blessing

I hugged, you pushed.

I opened my heart,

you broke it

Its not just my heart, Its me who broke inside

Now, my heart will never open up. For, its scared, scared to be hurt again

Today I say,

I am not a mistake, I am real, I am pain, A pain of a broken heart

To make you smile, I would do anything even if it kills me inside.

yet again I say,

But, I am not a mistake, I never was